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Web Devotions from Pastor Steve
Welcome! The devotions below are short pieces I'm writing each Monday through Friday. We'll keep up the last five days at a time, so if you miss a day, you will always be able to see the last several devotions and get caught up to re-enter the conversation. Over time, we will engage voices within Scripture and within the Christian community from the past and present--theologians, saints, mystics, and holy fools. See below for a description of the current series of devotions, or jump right in here for today's devotion. I invite you to read these just as one more conversation partner in your own reflection about faith, life, and the Reign of God who grasps us in Jesus. I would invite your own contributions to that conversation, too. I would invite your e-mails at pscbond@gmail.com.
Sermon Songs
Original songs are sometimes part of Pastor Steve's sermons. Here are a few you can download free as MP3 files(more coming over time as they are written and sung!), along with a listing for what Sunday or Scripture text they were inspired by:
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NEW! Overcome (Arms Open)--Song from September 3, 2017 (Romans 12:9-21 and Matt. 16:21-28)
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Always Is Always--Song from June 11, 2017 (Matthew 28:16-20)
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You Have a Way (Salt and Light)--from Matt. 5:13-16 and Isaiah 58:1-12 (February 5, 2017)
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All In--Song from September 4, 2016--Inspired by Luke 14:25-33
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The Hardest Part--Song from May 29, 2016--inspired by Psalm 96 and Luke 7:1-10
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Mother Killdeer (It All Comes Down)--Bonus Song from New Life Talent Show (March 6, 2016)
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This Will Be the Year--Song from January 24, 2016 (3rd Sunday after Epiphany--Luke 4:14-21)
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Constant--Song from November 15, 2015 (25th Sunday after Pentecost--Mark 13:1-8)
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Under the Broom Tree--Song from Aug. 9, 2015 (11th Sunday after Pentecost--1 Kings 19:4-8)
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This Was Grace--Song from July 5, 2015 (Sixth Sunday after Pentecost--Mark 6:1-13)
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Parting Gifts--Song from May 24, 2015 (Pentecost Sunday--John 16:4-15)
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Keeping the Scars--Song from April 12, 2015 (Second Sunday of Easter--John 20:19-31)
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Child of Mine--Song from February 22, 2015 (First Sunday in Lent--Mark 1:9-15)
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This Is Why--Song from October 26, 2014 (Jeremiah 31:31-34)
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Who Am I To You?--Song from August 24, 2014 (Matthew 16:13-20)
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Far From Perfect--Song from July 20, 2014 (Matthew 13:24-30)
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Ready (Simeon's Song)--Song from February 2, 2014 (Luke 2:22-40)
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The Joy of Being Wrong (John's Prison Blues)--song from December 15, 2013
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Until the Day--an original choir anthem, sung by Hope Choir December 15, 2013
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Dear Jacob--Song from October 21, 2013 (Genesis 32:22-31)
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The List (Song of the Prodgial Father)--Song from March 10, 2013 (Luke 15:11-32)
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Song for the Waiting--An Advent Song
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Always the Same--Song from September 1, 2013 (Hebrews 13:5-6)
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Grace-Bound Train--Song from June 30, 2013 (Luke 9:51-62)
Being Graced
Being Graced is a year-long exploration of living in the reckless generosity of God. Month by month, we are taking a look at different dimensions of the grace of God. For the month of June, we are looking at how grace opens our eyes. Check out these devotions here Monday through Friday, or follow them on Blogger at https://beinggraced.blogspot.com/. Or if you would like to receive these devotions via email, to write to me at pscbond@gmail.com and ask to be added to the list.
“Sweeping the Spiders
Away”—June 27, 2016
“But the thing that David had done displeased the Lord, and the
Lord sent Nathan to David. He came to
him, and said to him, “There were two men in a certain city, the one
rich and the other poor. 2The
rich man had very many flocks and herds; 3but
the poor man had nothing but one little ewe lamb, which he had
bought. He brought it up, and it grew up with him and with his
children; it used to eat of his meager fare, and drink from his cup,
and lie in his bosom, and it was like a daughter to him.
4Now there came a traveler to the rich
man, and he was loath to take one of his own flock or herd to
prepare for the wayfarer who had come to him, but he took the poor
man’s lamb, and prepared that for the guest who had come to him.”
5Then David’s anger was greatly
kindled against the man. He said to Nathan, “As the
Lord lives, the man who has done this
deserves to die; 6he shall
restore the lamb fourfold, because he did this thing, and because he
had no pity.” 7Nathan said to
David, “You are the man! Thus says the Lord,
the God of Israel: I anointed you king over Israel, and I rescued
you from the hand of Saul; 8I
gave you your master’s house, and your master’s wives into your
bosom, and gave you the house of Israel and of Judah; and if that
had been too little, I would have added as much more.
9Why have you despised the word of the
Lord, to do what is evil in his
sight?” [2 Samuel 11:27b-12:9a]
When someone brushes your shoulder unexpectedly and says to you,
“You had a spider on you!”, have you ever noticed that there is both
fear and relief at the same time? Your brain has to process
both the fact that you had a secret arachnid crawling up your
back, and the good news that someone else has taken care of
it for you and swept it away to go bother someone else or go save a
pig with web-based advertising somewhere else. There is relief
and discomfort at the same time, and they are interconnected,
because the relief is the relief of the uncomfortable truth
that you are just finding out about: namely, that something with
four times as many legs as you have was lurking unbeknownst to you
toward your neck.
Forgiveness is, in a very important sense, like that dual rush of
fear and relief from someone telling you they have brushed the
spider off your back. And that’s because being forgiven also
requires that we face the uncomfortable—in fact
squirm-inducing—reality that we have wronged someone else. To
hear someone else say, “You are forgiven,” brings us face to face
the with the honest truth that we NEEDED it in the first place.
It means I admit that I have broken relationship with someone
else, and by grace, they are restoring the relationship rather than
leaving it broken. There is grace in the same instant as there
is hard truth. There is relief in the same instant as there is
discomfort.
And just like with the friend who brushes off the spider from your
back, the relief is only possible at the point of facing the squirmy
truth. I won’t be relieved that the spider is gone until I
know at the same time that there was, after all, a spider.
And I won’t appreciate what it means to know I am forgiven until I
have been compelled to see, even kicking and screaming, that I was
in the wrong… that I hurt someone… that, to use the old phrasing for
it, sinned against my neighbor.
All of that is to say that the grace we call forgiveness includes
opening our eyes to see the uncomfortable truth about ourselves
first, and then in the same instant creates a new reality in
which our sin is put away. Maybe you could even say that the
grace of being forgiven is what makes it possible for me to
hear the truth that I messed up again in the first place, much like
your friend doesn’t usually say, “Hey, there’s a spider somewhere on
your body, but I’m not going to tell you where it is or help to get
it… I’m just going to let it hang there and drive you nuts.”
The story of David being confronted by Nathan tells us the same.
Without rehashing the whole soap opera, King David had done what
nearly everybody does when they get a hold of power—he let it
inflate his ego to the point where he thought he could do anything
he wanted. And in fact, he then had an affair, covered it up,
and had the woman’s husband killed to contain the scandal when the
initial cover-up didn’t work. Well, you can’t fool God, and so
God sent the prophet Nathan to do what prophets do: to speak truth
to that power.
Nathan forces David to come face to face with his actions, and to
own them rather than to keep hiding them and running from them.
Nathan forces David to see what he had done. He does it
graciously, and even subversively by telling his little parable of
the man with the ewe lamb, to get past David’s defenses. But
he did, in fact, open David’s eyes in a way that David needed.
There is forgiveness, to be sure—by the end of the story, Nathan
will say to the king, “Now the Lord has put away your sin.”
But that statement of forgiveness is only possible as David is
brought face to face with the reality of that sin first.
Otherwise he will be stuck trying to cover up and hide his actions
rather than having them swept away.
Chances are, our day to day sins are not quite so melodramatic as
David’s. But we still have the same need to face what we have
done as we receive forgiveness for our mess-ups. When I wrong
you, I need to know it—not so that I will suffer a certain amount
and thereby earn a second chance—but because when you forgive me, I
will not appreciate the gift of your grace to me unless I realize
what you are wiping away off of my back. If you keep trying to
pretend there is no spider because you are afraid it will make me
squirm to know it is there, it doesn’t make the spider go away.
What I need is for you to be honest with me, and to say to me,
“Steve, you screwed up. This hurt me. This didn’t work….
Those words were cutting rather than curing… that action was
self-centered and rude...” or whatever else I’ve done. I need
to know that if I am going to understand the depth of your grace
when you forgive me.
And the same is true with us and God as well. We all need
those people who will help us face the ways we have broken
relationship, hurt others, treated people as objects, let hate
fester in our hearts, and fallen for idols. We need those
people who, like Nathan, will be real with us and hold us
accountable. We need those voices of sisters and brothers in
Christ who will open our eyes—first, to see the spider… and second,
to see that it has been swept away and taken off of our backs, in
the very same instant.
Today, instead of more of the same old hiding, covering, and
running, who are the people you can seek out who will help open your
eyes to the need for grace… and who will also speak that grace into
your life by announcing God’s forgiveness? And how might
you be one of those voices for someone else who has got
something with a lot of legs crawling on their back, too?
Lord Jesus, open our eyes to see what we have been carrying on our
shoulders for too long… to face it, and then to see as well that you
have swept our sins away at the same time.
—Christ’s Peace,
Pastor Steve